Love yourself

Have you ever feel so attached to a group of people and you go around proudly telling others how you and your 'friends' vibrate with the same frequency but unfortunately your so-called friends don't really share the same thought? It's not mutual? You've been doing the tango yourself? Whatever words or statements you use, they're all basically convey the same meaning: THEY NEVER REALLY LIKED YOU!

You feel betrayed, you are dying from the wounds of the backstabs. You realized that they have pretended so well, playing along with you and putting up a very good show to like you but suddenly gave you a very good-hard slap at the ending of your friendship's telenovela, that you are actually not one of them? Taken aback by the cruel reality, you started bawling your eyes off, crying a nile river and prayed so hard to God you believe hoping that they will still stick to your sides with a well-aware fact that you don't blend with people easily due to your introvert nature? It's dramatic I know, but it happened.

 So fret not, you are not alone. People, especially those who are in their 20-ish something, feel and have the NEED to have their own circle. Whether you're an introvert, ambivert or even extrovert, you will always long for the chemistry, the bonds with others with one hopeful thought that it will last, a lifetime! Whatever --ert categories you are in, however easily you mingle and 'click' with strangers, you need to admit one thing: it's important to have your own comfort zones other than families, someone who you can trust wholly, who are ready to be all ears to your problems and willing to lend their shoulders for your weeps. 

We are all the same, we need our bestfriends.

One thing you need to remember when things like this happened: when your self-proclaimed best friends start to distant themselves from you, it's okay to mourn, it's okay to feel bad and grave, it's okay to ask yourself what's wrong with you . But it's never okay to put all the blame on yourself, it's never okay to change your own self for the sake of pleasing others' arses, it's never okay to not to be true to yourself. It's not okay to question your very existence for petty matters like this. Shit happens (Forrest Gump), so you gotta pick yourself up and start walking again, if you can't, then start with a crawl until you're able to stand on your two feet again. 

You need to move on and love yourself, in fact love yourself harder than anyone ever could or ever hard. Loving and embracing yourself are million-folds more important than trying to change yourself to meet people's expectations, it's more important than trying to change on how you should react to things and circumstances: according to them. It's more important than changing the way you see and perceived things, it's far more important than having your life get dictated by others. 

And you should be Thanking God for the opportunities to make peace with yourself once again, Thank Him for showing you how to love yourself again, Thank Him and your then-bestfriend for the memories and most importantly the experience you shared.

For you is one, you is unique, so be you, just play you.

As the words which have been circulating in the net for quite sometimes, "if you can't handle me at my worst, then you don't deserve me at my best". 

When you are ready to forgive others and love yourself more, you are a newleaf, a baby trying to explore and understand the universe and what it contains once again.

I promise you, things will get better, you'll survive, you'll live, the scars will heal and it will only be a fraction of good memories you'll cherish and do have faith  because IT WILL NOT TAILS YOU FOREVER. Instead you'll be thankful for the lessons you've learned. Remember, life is a teacher, learn from it.